Photo: Eric Charbonneau / Courtesy of Netflix. I really wanted to discover what my limit-less possibilities were in this new world, but I did find it very challenging as the process took a long time, and I am not a very patient person. Sodderland co-directed the multiple award-winning feature film 'My Beautiful Broken Brain' (executive produced by David Lynch), which is her own . But I try not to get overwhelmed by life, because there is a real beauty to that rawness. "My life now is very simple, it's very focused, but actually now I've come to terms with that, I can appreciate the beauty of it." It was a dreary Sunday in November 2011. Before the stroke, I was a documentary producer in London, living in what I now realise was a very high-level cognition world. I did something that I normally never do, which is: I took a camera with me. Starring: Sophie Robinson, Lotje Sodderland Watch all you want. Knowing that was not the answer, Mr Tan insisted for more tests and scans which subsequently revealed a dilated pupil and a blood clot in her brain, indicating signs of a stroke. It was very painful for my ears. An acquired language impairment, aphasia typically occurs after a stroke or traumatic brain injury and can affect a persons ability to communicate, both verbal or written. Aphasia SG is a not-for-profit organisation supporting persons with aphasia and their caregivers. Sophie, when Lotje got in touch, what did you think?SOPHIE ROBINSON: I was in the middle of an edit of another film. According to her, making a film about her struggles was the first linear thought she had after the stroke. A more deep seated confrontation with my mortality manifested itself through panic attacks, but theydidnt really kick in until after I had aseizure -months after my initialstroke. Dutch-French filmmaker Lotje Sodderland didn't know young people could suffer from a stroke - until she had one herself in 2011, then aged 34. Since its inception, Aphasia SG has expanded its free community activities to include aphasia choir, virtual programmes and public outreach events such as movie screenings. Original reporting and incisive analysis, direct from the Guardian every morning. A bullet hits his right frontal lobe, and another hits the left subclavian vein in his chest. I was almost back to square one. Ive worked on a new character, becoming more patient, more accepting, kinder to myself and to the people around me. And had I actually gone mad? Lotje has Aphasia and we see her tryingto re-learn how to use words. Mit: . In the middle of the night, I had a crushing headache that took over my entire body and mind. I looked at my iPhone, but had no idea how it worked. The challenge is to rebuild your identity, Sodderland told me when I spoke with her and Robinson by phone from Austin, Texas, earlier this week. 17 Oscar-Nominated Netflix Films to Watch in Honor of Awards Season, The Best (and Most Anticipated) Movies of 2023 So Far, The 70 Best Romantic Comedies of All Time. My brain had forgotten how to filter sensory inputs, images as well as noises. My vision was overcome with lurid green and purple grids. She became very quiet and withdrawn, while my brother went into saviour mode and wanted to do many things but yet, did not know how. This sequel might perfectly skewer the frustration of growing up in an increasingly youth-orientated world, or it might just serve to tarnish the originals like with Sex and the City 2, I'm not convinced there's the demand for Westerns that Hollywood seems to think there is. And I had fond memories as well. Contact They realised that the recovery process can feel monotonous without some spontaneity. To make sense of what had happened, the former film producer documented her feelings and experiences with her therapies, physiological changes and a newly acquired communication disorder called aphasia through video clips that were turned into a full-length feature film called My Beautiful Broken Brain. Registered office: 1 London Bridge Street, SE1 9GF. Owen Wilson, Zach Galifianakis, Kristen Wiig and Jason Sudeikis form a strong cast, but there are no trailers to go on yet, That book everyone was reading on the commute inevitably makes it cinemas in October, with Emily Blunt playing Rachel Watson, an alcoholic whose husband left her for his mistress, and who witnesses a murder and starts to realize that she may have been involved in the crime, Doctor Strange might not have been the most obvious character to take to the big screen, but by this point Marvel could make $1billion at the box office from a comic an exec once scrawled on a piece of toilet paper, J.K. Rowling makes her screenwriting debut adapting her own book here, with a film that takes place in the Harry Potter universe but is well removed from Hogwarts, Disney is releasing a Star Wars movie every year between now and 2020. She was suffering a massive brain haemorrhage due to a rare developmental malformation of the blood vessels in her brain. But no more than the average Lynch fan. I began to draw, bringing to life the monsters I had seen in visions and dreams. He really helped us massively. Midway through filming, Robinson contacted Lynch's agent to try and show him one of these videos and much to their surprise he sent them an email back. Her facial grimace betrays how bleak that reality seems to herdespite theattempt to expressthe thought with a smile. I didnt know it yet, but I was experiencing anunprovoked bleed to my brain a stroke. It looks as though fans will finally be getting the comic book-faithful, foul-mouthed version of the character they wanted, but it remains to be seen whether Deadpool will actually be funny, or just descend into toilet humour, Zoolander's return was derailed somewhat by backlash over a trans/gender fluid character played by Benedict Cumberbatch. "But I knew that I'd need some help.". Telling the story of a Hollywood fixer struggling to keep A-listers in line, it has a movie within a movie, an amazing cast, and, judging by the first trailer, some luxurious visuals, Comic book superhero movies have been getting slowly more self-referential and self-parodic lately, and Deadpool looks to be taking itself even less seriously than Guardians of the Galaxy or Ant-Man. n the short term, I had to re-learn many words and struggled to put them in the right order. Filmmaker Lotje Sodderland documents her recovery process from the hemorrhagic stroke she had at 34 and the new life she builds in the aftermath. He told me thatIhadbeen doing my word training at homewhenIstarted hallucinating and lost myvision. Thedrugs numbed my brain, but I was paranoid and panicked. Thats a start.. Lotje Sodderland, who filmed her recovery from a stroke at the age of 34 Credit: Netflix Every three minutes and 27 seconds, someone in the UK has a stroke. She managed to get herself dressed and stumbled to a nearby hotel, before blacking out completely. Living on her own, she lays in bed for a while waiting for it to happen but something nudges her to get up and seek help. It didnt really make that much sense: It was all in capitals, and there were no full stops. We seeLotje struggle with the first sessions of cognitive evaluation and speech therapy, the embarrassment from not being able to remember simple word, her nervous laughter, her apologies for not making a lot of sense, her courageoussmile turning into uncontrollable tears of frustration and sadness. But when I looked back, the words had slid off the page. Im grateful to have learnt so much more about the challenges of being human - so early on. They had set themselves a goal: by Christmas, they would have taught me to write a shopping list, and to read Simpkin, by Quentin Blake, my three-year-old niece Matildas favourite book. HAPPINESS INITIATIVE SINGAPORE. At the age of 34 Lotje Sodderland suffered a stroke that almost killed her but left her with a fascination with the science that saved her life. Wellcome Trust. I didnt want the experience to pass through me. Lotje Sodderland Sat 22 Nov 2014 02.30 EST Last modified on Fri 1 Dec 2017 12.22 EST A trailer for My Beautiful Broken Brain, Lotje's documentary about her recovery, made with director Sophie. Every three minutes and 27 seconds, someone in the UK has a stroke. [7], My Beautiful Broken Brain had its world premiere at the 2014 International Documentary Film Festival Amsterdam, where it won the DOC U award. I thought I was talking to them, but they didnt reply. But he did it in a very collaborative way. I worked at an advertising agency that was doing some documentary content, and Sophie was a well-established documentary director who had done several science-based programs and series for the BBC. Imanaged to call him and he found mefive minutes later, crouching on the floor outside myflat. I would then spend a further 140 minutes a day on the laptops visual and sonic word repetition training app. I used it to record what was going on in my new world. Lotje, theres a turning point in the film, when you decide to stop seeing yourself as limited and instead start focusing on the possibilities. Sky High: The Series This year, I fell in love, a terrifying prospect when operating a new brain. Nothing made any sense, everything was beautiful but it was frightening, it was backward, there was no kind of linear logic to it. The film was initiated by its protagonist herself. Even doing supposedly normal tasks like making a cup of tea or using a cash machine just seemed to have no coherent structure, or logic, for me. At some point I was able to communicate with my brother that I really needed to get in touch with this woman. "He knows about the non-linear narratives and the subtle relationship between the mundane and the surreal." To keep up her motivation, Mrs Tan sets new targets and uses creative means to practise at home. Jan later filled in the gaps. But I found the therapies a constant reminder of what I couldnt do, rather than what I could. Speech therapist Goh Huai Zhi shares his understanding of the brain and insights on aphasia recovery. Itried the radio, but the sounds were overwhelming. My Beautiful Broken Brain combines her many iPhone recordingscapturing her experience became an obsession in the face of faulty short-term memoryinterviews shot by the documentarian Sophie Robinson beginning just weeks after the hemorrhage, and special effects footage that re-creates the terrifying fever-dream experience of being inside Sodderlands malfunctioning brain, a world she compares to the Red Room in David Lynchs Twin Peaks. My mum lent me a fiver. See also Other Works | Publicity Listings | Official Sites View agent, publicist, legal and company contact details on IMDbPro Lotje Sodderland I signed a pile of disclaimers and followed a delightfully deadpan neurologist, Dr Leff, into what looked like an interstellar teleportation device. ISTANBUL FILM FESTIVAL. Somebody gave me back my iPhone in the hospital, a few days after the stroke, and I quickly re-learned how to use it and started recording myself. He experiences anoxia resulting in brain damage. Things change constantly for everybody. Pretending she was an actor, playing a character in a film, also helped give her distance from the more distressing things she went through in hospital. What does your life look like now?LS: My life is really good now. My brain no longer had the ability to switch off. I have to use a tablet to write messages for my husband. Id forgotten her name, and I couldnt really explain what I wanted. It is run by a team of dedicated speech therapist volunteers. When you hear someones just had a brain hemorrhage, youre not going to say no. We see Lotje typing a text but she cant read what she has just typed. 894646. She started taking video-selfies of herself while still in hospital, and two weeks later contacted documentary filmmaker Sophie Robinson to enlist her help. Two weeks after the stroke, I nearly burned the ward to a cinder when the hospital ran a standard independent living test on me (the making of tea and toast). Sodderland describes the process of making My Beautiful Broken Brain as essential to her recovery. He would always say, Send me more of those video messages! When I was in California, I said, Do you want to have coffee? And he said, Sure, come round! Hes been a very central figure in the positive transformation and understanding of all that darkness. I had no strategy to survive any catastrophes of the heart was it utterly unwise to expose myself to such potential loss? It was like waking up on a new planet that was strange and frightening; beautiful and overwhelming. Access unlimited streaming of movies and TV shows with Amazon Prime Video Sign up now for a 30-day free trial. 2016 will see a ninth X-Men film. Lotje: Im really fortunate to be born with an optimistic personality, and that really helped me as I kept thinking that everything was going to be OK and that the illness is actually not terrible. I took meditation and mindfulness classes at a Buddhist centre near my home. She woke up in hospital two days later, and once she had her belongings returned to her, found herself reaching for her iPhone and once someone had shown her how to use it again pressing record, Although initially Sodderland was using her phone videos to help her remember all the meetings with doctors, she realised that she also wanted to document what was happening to her. She makes it to a local hotel but she cant speak and so she cant explain whats wrong. Falling in love was as immediate, raw and unfiltered as if I were doing it for the first time. International Documentary Film Festival Amsterdam, "SXSW Film Review: My Beautiful Broken Brain", "My Beautiful Broken Brain: The amazing collaboration of David Lynch and a woman who 'video-selfied' her stroke", "My Beautiful Broken Brain review - moving study of life after stroke", "At SXSW, a Woman Who Had a Stroke Turns Director", "Netflix Picks Up 'My Beautiful Broken Brain' Documentary from David Lynch", https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=My_Beautiful_Broken_Brain&oldid=1098836516, Short description is different from Wikidata, Pages containing links to subscription-only content, Creative Commons Attribution-ShareAlike License 3.0, This page was last edited on 17 July 2022, at 18:34. Starring: Sophie Robinson, Lotje Sodderland Watch all you want. I enjoyed the daily trip, and being surrounded by neuroscientists; Iliked the sense of being an active participant, rather than a passive patient. My friends who lived overseas, especially Lucy and Anita, who lives in Holland, visited regularly. Read on for more from my conversation with the filmmakers, about their collaboration, how they got David Lynch on board, and what Sodderlands life looks like these days. Midway through the night, she wakes up with an excruciating headache that is so strong thatshe thinks she is going to die. Now she needs to take medication and deal with the side effects. Ive got a really nice camera, and I make documentaries. Her friends describe her as someone impassioned, who was busy multitasking, writing films, writing in general, always readingthick books, someone very articulate. [4][5], Lotje covers some of the daily challenges that she experienced after sustaining injury to her brain through the stroke, not just with dysphasia and apraxia while communicating through expressive verbal language, reading and writing, but also the memory deficits, confusion, cognitive processing and sensory perception changes, over-sensitivity to noise and the sensations of overwhelm, fatigue, frustration, and at times discouragement about future considering the changes in her life. Another change is that Ican access the creative part of my brain more easily. But I felt like I was in the world he created in his films. Elf and Iron Man director Jon Favreau is a fairly safe pair of hands though, and Idris Elba, Ben Kingsley, Scarlett Johansson, Lupita Nyong'o, Christopher Walken, Giancarlo Esposito and Bill Murray are all on board, 'Financial TV personality Lee Gates, who offers up stock advice on his hit show "Money Monster," is held hostage by a viewer, Kyle Budwell, who lost all of his money following a bad tip from Lee during his show'. Lotje: When I fell ill, it was a huge shock to everybody as it was such a radical and massive transformation overnight. I used my phone to really help me. Now the resulting documentary produced by David Lynch is coming to Netflix, Find your bookmarks in your Independent Premium section, under my profile. When we came for the activities, my wife had to wheel me in, and people thought I was the patient.. [8], Netflix started streaming the film as a Netflix Original worldwide on March 18, 2016.[9]. I was suddenly in a different world to the one I had inhabited before. Brechas Urbanas Sao Paolo. A house cleaner desperately searches for her husband as a dreaded criminal syndicate dredges up past tragedies and ultimately drives her to violence. Certain things did start to change. It's expected to have an anti-SeaWorld message, which should make it strike a chord with parents as well as children, There's still a lot of love for Roald Dahl's stories, and this one is being adapted by none other than Steven Spielberg. Then she would strap cables to my head and apply a couple of milliamps of current to my brain for 20 minutes. Iyearned for solitude. When the stroke happened, I forgot his name. Lotje: One of the therapies I found very useful was Occupational Therapy. Davids always been a massive supporter of the film. Our relationship professionally really developed once Id had the stroke. Following severe brain injuries, the NHS refers patients to inpatient neurological rehabilitation units for psychological, linguistic and physical treatment. A few seconds later she realizes her mistake. Iasked a friend if he thought I was a changed woman. Do you remember this meeting? The extraordinary documentary takes you on a journey inside Sodderland's mind, using special effects to recreate the distorted vision she experienced as a side-effect of the stroke and the pulsating colours and strange visuals that became her new normal. After two days in an induced coma, with emergency surgery to my parietal and temporal lobes, the parts of my brain wherelanguage and perception are housed, I woke up in aworld I didnt recognise. "We started filming that day and she was still very confused and there was a big part of me that was wary because I knew she was very vulnerable and had to concentrate on recovery. You see what happens in the film. Vogue may earn a portion of sales from products that are purchased through our site as part of our Affiliate Partnerships with retailers. Denzel Washington, Chris Pratt and Ethan Hawke are among the gang, Based on the 1997 Loomis Fargo Robbery in North Carolina, this comedy comes from the man behind Napoleon Dynamite. I was filled with faith that this was going to work, and was prepared to overlook the gruelling downsides, including the discomfort of the daily currents andthe punishing, repetitive boredom. Her vision is also troubling her she sees intense colors. From picking their next holiday to setting up their marital home, a stroke diagnosis was the last thing that the couple in their early forties had in mind. A white name tag was strapped around my wrist. So it was sad. When did you decide to send him a message?LS: Toward the end of the first year, Sophie was encouraging me to try. My family and friends knew that I was going to be different after the stroke and they accepted me. A trailer for My Beautiful Broken Brain, Lotjes documentary about her recovery, made with director Sophie Robinson. By the end of my first week out of hospital, I was able to speak, but without much coherence. I struggled to find the logic in a toothbrush, or the system that goes with the washing of hair, even though I knew (without really understanding) that these behaviours were a necessary part of human life. Because I still cant read. Liam Neeson and Andrew Garfield star, playing two Jesuit Portuguese Catholic priests who face violent persecution when they travel to Japan to seek out their mentor and spread the teachings of Christianity, David Lynchbecame an executive producer on the film, Sodderland is lucky to be alive, having suffered a massive stroke which left her unable to speak, read, write and perform even simple tasks, Please refresh the page or navigate to another page on the site to be automatically logged in, Please refresh your browser to be logged in, My Beautiful Broken Brain: The woman who 'video-selfied' her stroke, 5% off all bookings with this Travelodge discount code, Save 200 on 2023 holidays with this TUI discount code, Extra 15% off Balearic Islands reservation with Barcelo promo code, Family memberships from just 83.40 a year at National Trust, Up to 15% off stays in trending hotels with Hotels.com, Compare broadband packages side by side to find the best deal for you, Compare cheap broadband deals from providers with fastest speed in your area, All you need to know about fibre broadband, Best Apple iPhone Deals in the UK February 2023, Compare iPhone contract deals and get the best offer this February, Compare the best mobile phone deals from the top networks and brands. Three years ago she suffered a stroke herself. "Things were all deconstructed and disconnected and didn't make sense, so making the film was a way to relearn how to tell a story." I really enjoy words, and I always loved writing. This might well be Jason Bourne's last outing, so I hope they send him off in style, Harley Quinn was one of the most popular Halloween costumes this year, despite the holiday falling months before the release of the film she's in. But it was decided that this experiment could no longer be run on people who had suffered a stroke within the past year. I opened my eyes as a young medic walked to mybedside and gave me anti-convulsive pills, tellingme to keep taking them twice a day until furthernotice. Niamh Malone was a clinical nurse specialist in stroke rehabilitation for more than a decade. Start your Independent Premium subscription today. Its very different. But I think its fantastic. Then she asks: What if all this evidence is removed? The last three years have seen a series of milestones the first holiday, the first solo trip. I'd lost the ability to retain information so I wanted to record this new and terrifying place I'd found myself in. Now, after the success of My Beautiful Broken Brain, they see the value of story-telling for brain-injured people. When buying food, I have to bring a lot of $10 notes as I have trouble giving the correct amount.. As a result, a single passenger is awakened 60 years early. Last year, four years after the stroke, I got married to a wonderful man. 'My Beautiful Broken Brain' is released on Netflix tomorrow. When did that happen?SR: Netflix had come on board, and suddenly we were in a very real situation, where the film was actually going to go out globally to 190 different countries. Im not dead. On this Wikipedia the language links are at the top of the page across from the article title. The material on this site may not be reproduced, distributed, transmitted, cached or otherwise used, except with the prior written permission of Cond Nast. The fog was lifting. She did the tea and toast test on me, and this time Ipassed. She drew her brother a picture of a TV and a horizon because she remembered that Robinson had made a documentary for the BBC series and after "a few hours" he figured it out. Videos Romance is a complex neurological process, and Ididnt think Iwas eligible any more. "I went to meet her the day after she got out of hospital," says Robinson. So I better not have faith in anything. I had spent the weekend with friends, watching fireworks over London, and trying to make impossible things happen for a deadline at work, where I was a documentary producer. 10.6k Followers, 1,026 Following, 1,325 Posts - See Instagram photos and videos from Lotje Sodderland (@lotje____) Lotje covers some of the daily challenges that she experienced after sustaining injury to her brain through the stroke, not just with dysphasia and apraxia while communicating through expressive verbal language, reading and writing, but also the memory deficits, confusion, cognitive processing and sensory perception changes, over-sensitivity to I gazed at the night sky and remembered my old life of freedom and adventure. Lotje Sodderlands long journey to a happy life with what she calls her new brain began early on a November morning in 2011. I was fascinated and enthralled and terrified by [that new world]. I opted instead to volunteer for an experiment on my brain, using transcranial direct current stimulation. 34 year old Lotje Sodderland's personal voyage into the complexity, fragility and wonder of her own brain following a life changing hemorrhagic stroke. We spent many frustrating afternoons trying. As part of her recovery she designed a motivational psychological programme and she has now developed the app "Recovery After a Brain Injury" to help people faced with similar challenges. David Lynch plays an interesting role in this narrative. Please refresh the page or navigate to another page on the site to be automatically logged inPlease refresh your browser to be logged in, When Lotje Sodderland woke up in hospital following a stroke, she charted her recovery by making videos on her iPhone. (2018). Lotje Sodderland is a director and writer, known for My Beautiful Broken Brain (2014), Limbo (2021) and Can You Rebuild My Brain? 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